Third timer.

I was more than a little nervous to have a third child. Of course we were excited, we knew how much we would love him, but I laid awake more than a couple nights (thank you preg-somnia!) wondering how on earth I would juggle three. Because to be perfectly honest most days I felt like I was barely keeping my head above water with the two that I already had! Two year old's are loving and sweet and also small unreasonable monsters. And three year old's? They are inquisitive and funny and will ask you questions and argue with you until your brain is mush. Then this magical thing happened...Hunter was born, and everything was like a fairytale....haha just kidding, not even close, but it truly has not been nearly as rough as I imagined.

I had forgotten that being pregnant was effecting every part of my day, my exhaustion, the aches and severe pains, trying to parent from modified bed rest (more on that mess later).  Just being able to be up and around, to keep up with the house, run after my munchkins, it all made an enormous difference. Though I still have moments where I have to ask myself "WHY am I arguing with a toddler?!" or "What on earth is all over my shirt?", I feel much more together than I did in those last couple months of my pregnancy. Having a newborn at this point in my life is much different than it was the first, and even the second time. I am much more relaxed this time around, I know this is our last baby, so I am making a daily effort to cherish each day of this "newborn stage". I am human, I am still tired during the 2AM feedings. I still get frustrated when he screams every single time I lay him down. But I have learned a lot as well, on those days where Hunter wants nothing than to be held? Hold him. If it all possible, sit down, cuddle that baby, housework can wait. And when I absolutely need to be mobile, I put him in a baby carrier and go about my day. When he nurses ALL. DAY. LONG. I have learned that it doesn't mean I am not producing enough milk, there is nothing wrong with the baby OR with me, it is just 100% normal.

Just these few things, makes me think about how much nobody tells a new mom. Nobody warned me that breastfeeding would be hard...like REALLY hard. With our first born I remember thinking that I must be doing something wrong because nursing is supposed to be the easiest most natural thing ever...RIGHT?! Wrong. However after many nights of late night googling, and pure stubbornness, it got better, slowly but surely. I went on to nurse for a full year, with both boys, and I hope to do the same now. I just wish that instead of these parenting books telling moms and dads HOW they should do things, they would remind parents that babies and children are hard, exhausting, and also fantastic, and most of the time you are doing just fine, just take a deep breath and keep going. Everyone will have an opinion, everyone will have an answer, but in all reality, you will end up doing a mixture of "techniques" also known as "whatever works". And you know what? That is just fine.

Here goes nothing!

Blogging.

I have been down this road before, I just always felt like I was too busy, never had the time to keep up with a blog. However now, with three small children, when my life is busier than ever...I have decided to try again. Mostly because I need to remember these days, I need to remember the moment when my three year old asked me "are you thinkin what I'm thinkin mom?" (Seriously-where does this kid get this stuff?!). I want to remember being so blissfully exhausted, nursing our newest bundle in the middle of the night, playing with my toddlers all day, and eating dinner in bed with my husband, enjoying our few moments of quiet. Life is fast and stops for nobody, so I want to take some time to write it down. Let me introduce you to my family...

My husband. We have been together for 9 years, married for 5. He is a manager at a restaurant, and works so hard for his family. I am seriously lucky to have him in my life.

Our oldest son is Jackson. He is 3 1/2 going on 25. He is hilarious and silly, smart, and SO imaginative.

Chase came along just 13 months after Jackson. He has a personality that cannot be matched. He is always making us laugh, and is so very sweet...mixed with a whole lot of two year old sass! Ha!!

Annnnnd our newest babe. Hunter is just one month old, he is sweet and full of newborn squish. Hold on to your ovaries ladies:

Okay just one more...

So, here we go. A peek at our day-to-day, the good, the bad, and the silly. If you are here to read along - Welcome! Hold on tight because our life? It certainly is Crazy Beautiful.